Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Cold Feet, Cold Heart

I had a really bad day today.
It was an 'off" day in more ways than one.
To start with ( no offense PC people) i had to write this post on a PC.
After many years a Mac afficianado , i hate trying to figure out a PC ( and with Lyme Brain - which remembers nothing ) especially late at night and after the hot water runs out when i am trying to fill my bath !
Uggh. A perfect ending to a rotton day.
MY hubs , donned in a white Hazmat suit , goggles and respirator ( i kid you not - i took pictures to be posted later) sprayed the yard and environs with toxic chemicals today to kill the ticks that have been breeding in our yard since last summer. It literally hurt my heart.
Anyone that knows me can attest to the fact that i am a strictly Organic girl.
i believe in the Diversity of Life .
Lyme Disease has changed that one simple credo , forever.
Ticks no longer fit into my scheme of things. I fear and loathe them.
I tried to choose the least harmful and bio-degradable perethin based insecticide to keep the
carnage to the rest of Nature's bounty to a minimum but it still killed a little part of me along with the
creepy arthropods . It stung like a bee' s sting.
It was either that or never step foot in my garden , watch Colin run naked through the flowers with abandon , or let Nooni play hide and seek with the squirrels that live in our Linden tree. I chose the poison pill.
My heart felt poisoned all day as a result.
There is a lot of stress to keep at bay these days.
LD also makes one prone to irritability and emotional outbursts and they were all on board today , too.
It made for a tough day all around.
But as they say -
Tomorrow is another day....

1 comment:

  1. Sometimes you just have to do it. But I can definitely understand how hard that was for you. I once got (rightfully and sanely!)lectured by a friend because I did not want to kill a black widow spider that I found living in our house. Sometimes you just got to suck it up and do it. But all things pass, and you will all (plus guests and animals) be much better off with those ticks gone from your yard! I thought I had one crawling on me today -- aiieeeee.

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